September 9, 2010
I gave you love. With no conditions. No ties. No boundaries, no limits. Id pick u up when u were down. And push u higher when u were happy. Never gave you a day of grief. Never said no. never held back. Never fumbled. Never gave in to distractions. I was true. I was all I could be just to make u smile.
But it was never enough. U didn’t love me the same way. You never did. u kept me around cos u knew I loved u. u kept me with u not for me. never for me. just for the love I showed. U wanted to be adored and I gave it to u, no questions asked. But u never loved me that way. You never looked at me. u never looked in to my eyes when u said u love me. u never made an effort. U never had to. U had me. all of me, and u threw it away. The love I could have given u for the rest of ur life. The security. The amazing sex everything. For what? The thrill of another conquest?? Another number to add to ur list of whores?
What do u think I am? Do u really think I can ever forgive u for cheating on me nine times???? Did u think that I can just let it all go like I did before? That I can forget about the videos u sent her telling her u love her??? Do u think I can ever get over seeing the man I love tell another woman he loves her? u even got the tattoo of my name on ur back DONE WITH HER??~ that’s freaking insane??! Who the hell goes to do a tattoo of ur girlfriend with ur mistress, and makes out with her in the bathroom after adding flames to my name?! sheesh. i really know how to pick them.
Im sooooooooo moving on. Im done with insanity. Im done with love. Im done with heartbreak. im done with you.
September 10, 2010 at 6:37 am
Sometimes you know something makes you crazy , and breaks your heart in a million pieces on a regular basis, but we don’t let go, simply cz you think that nothing could hurt more than letting go.
But the truth is it’s the 1st step towards being whole again, and this is your chance – to be you, and not something someone expects you to be.
PS – i am SO proud of you, you lioness, you! mwah!
September 10, 2010 at 8:37 am
sometimes letting go is the only thing u can do. cos there are no more peices of ur heart left to break